So I thought I was moving on from Ashley, I mean I have Kody right? Well things with him are weird and complicated, and I don't really like to just talk to him because I don't feel like I can even talk about normal things. Like "how was your day" and "whats up" he says things totally unrelated or the same thing every...single...time. I never get a real convesation.

Ok well I am getting off topic form what I am wanting to say. She and a girl from school are together now.. well not officially, but yeah.. they kiss and shit. Well I am getting pretty up-set about it.. liek this all just happened today. I am so happy she has someone but i ma so upset that it is another girl, i was hopign for a guy. I would feel so much better if it was a guy, but it's not. it's a chick.. It's really bugging the shit out of me...

On top of that I don't have anyone I can truly tell my feelings too or just talk too.. I don't have anyone anymore.. she is gone and dosnt really want to be there for me like that, demitri is no existence when i need real help.. and I feel weird telling Connor things. Not having anyone is making it that much harder to cope and just get out of this hole i am falling down into..

I have yet to do my homework.. i just needed that off my chest....

So it has been a year since I wrote. Not like it matters since no one ever reads this other than me. Life in the past year has been quite a trip. I have moved and now go to a public high school, and Ashley actually moved her and goes to the same school. We dated up until our one year, but we lost alot of our friendship and what made us love each other. So now we are just best friends (sometimes) and I have a new boyfriend.

School is great, but this current school is getting shut down next year because of budget cuts. It's total bullshit and even the ones who made the decision know it it. But they don't care.

My boyfriend's name is Kody, he is a sophmore like I am, and he is 2 months younger. He is different than most the people I date, so I am not sure how it will work out. But I am not thinking about the past so much, I am just trying to stay as much in the present as possible.

As great as life is right now, i feel like I am going back into a hole of no return. Hence my return to blogging, it's my escape and my safe heaven. To just write to myself and act like I am talking to someone. It makes me feel drained and allows me to keep moving on. ^_^

I keep going back though the old posts and stuff, and seeing things that i have put and just how old some of it is kills me. hahaa

I have also given blood twice in 6 months!! ^_^ I did it yesterday and about 3 or 4 months ago too! I love doing it, I know I am helping someone! hahaa

Ok well I have some homework to do.. I will write again soon!

Love -- Kat

Drama with Kiel is gone....lol life is actually pretty good. I am going to start back on what I used to be doing and help my self out a little. Ashley is so beautiful and I really think I am falling for her. Ryan and I are no longer talking. (because I blocked his ass) Life is just good, (except my French grade)

So yeah, I know I haven't updated in three weeks. I have been kinda busy and also Ashely a girl in my class I like asked me out. So yeah, but I am just so pissed off right now it's not even funny. Her ex-boyfriend is in our class and his name is Kiel. Well on Wed she told him we were going out, he was like pissed but now he is cool with it now. But I just saw a message of him saying he was going to kiss her booboo, but he would kiss anywhere she wanted too. Then was like you know it's funny, and she was all smiles and shit. God I am so pissed off....I ranted a little bit I will rant a bit later. lol

Today I took my last final. It was hard. T_T My last one wes History, and we had to much crammed into our heads the last 18 weeks, it's not even funny. But I did ok in the end, I prevailed!! xD

I tried talkign to Dale again. I give the fuck up on any kind of conversation. Thats all there is to it.

I ate so much today..I feel like shit for it but what ever. I'll work it off tomorrow, I am going to try and work out all day tomorrow. Thats the goal..

Babysittign went well, Mikey came over like we had talked about ( He is my neighbor knows the little boy really well) So we chilled out while spending most of the night trying to put the little devil to bed. I also go $20 out of the deal to! I am going to get a stability ball and maybe something else, I'm not sure yet. But I knew the stability ball alog time ago. XD

Ok im going to bed...night...